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Certain things have happened that I'm not proud of. Things that I hate that have happened. Things that have depressed me and pushed me to want to attempt suicide. I can't do something like that though...
If I happen to upload the next few drawings, all I can say is beware. During a recent incident that has happened, my drawings are going to look more... dark and grim than they have been. Some may jerk a few nerves of people. Others may be a bad idea in general to look at. I've been doing a couple of vent art drawings lately, so with that, I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt. If I need to add a warning, a restriction or some shit, I suppose just tell me. I can't read minds.
.... So tired... haven't gotten a wink of sleep from feeling so troubled. I'm going to TRY to rest my eyes, unless I want them to be hurting all day from exhaustion...
If I happen to upload the next few drawings, all I can say is beware. During a recent incident that has happened, my drawings are going to look more... dark and grim than they have been. Some may jerk a few nerves of people. Others may be a bad idea in general to look at. I've been doing a couple of vent art drawings lately, so with that, I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt. If I need to add a warning, a restriction or some shit, I suppose just tell me. I can't read minds.
.... So tired... haven't gotten a wink of sleep from feeling so troubled. I'm going to TRY to rest my eyes, unless I want them to be hurting all day from exhaustion...
Hey guys, figured I'd explain my sudden absence.
So just for starters, I didn't quit at any point through my commission making whatsoever, but I did have to take a bit of a break. I'm still taking a bit of a break. Truth is I've been in and out of the hospital for a debilitating illness I've had for years, and only recently it's gotten far worse. I'm okay, don't worry. ๐
I suffer from chronic migraines where mine are classified as "classic" migraines. I could easily go blind, and certain body parts could go numb - sometimes of which could be worrisome. My most prominent symptoms that I've been experiencing though is weakness, confusion (normally these I attribute it to being similar to a dementia episode imo), brain fog, light/sound sensitivity, slowness, etc. There are many more symptoms, but I'll let you look them up yourself. I had been getting one migraine after another ever before January 8th of this month, and couldn't get them under control, so I went to the doctor on January 9th. I got prescribed a new preventative to try
Just came back from the hospital this morning.
So uh... yeah. Uh, this is more recent, but I had found out one of my molar teeth that had been worked on before had gotten infected. I mean... severely infected. It started around on Monday of this week when I was expecting to just have two days off of work, but that slowly turned into a goddamn NIGHTMARE. My face had gotten swollen to the point it looked like a tumor, and I had a huge knot on my jaw. Around Wednesday I went to my regular doctor because I had a feeling I wasn't going to get to go to a dentist soon, so at the very least I could get on prescription grade pain meds and antibiotics. When I tell you I have just went through such insane hell... it really doesn't cut it. I could barely eat or drink anything at all, I barely slept, and I couldn't talk. I was forced to go mute because it hurt too much to try. I was deathly afraid my throat was going to swell shut and I was going to choke in my sleep. I finally managed to convince my mother to take me to the ER today after I
Life Update
Things have gotten worse since I wrote my journal entry on January 28th. Much worse. **WARNING**: Subjects of suicidal tendencies, self-harm, substance abuse and varying levels of emotional, mental, and psychological abuse. Please continue with caution. TLDR; My parents are assholes and nearly made me kill myself despite trying to be stopped by a friend. Their abuse has gotten worse to the point I can't even stay at my own house. They were also incredibly insensitive about the whole situation regarding my sister's death. I've resorted to couch surfing, and even now I have nowhere else to go because the person I went to for help is not even acknowledging me. I'm planning to take whatever money I can and try to find someplace else to live so I can finally get out of my state sometime this year. I'm not going to hold anything back. This might as well be my therapy even though that's the worst decision I could ever make. I have nothing else to lose. Ever since that night hit, everything
An update on life... and an announcement.
Let me start off by saying it's been... really rough these past 5-6 months. There is no TLDR. You'll just have to read the whole thing or skip this entirely. I haven't been away all willy nilly, and I'm sorry if I ended up worrying anybody for my increased absence as of the last half a year last year and this month. You see, I was caught up in legal trouble around August and it stretched until about the end of October and midway November. I had gotten into a wreck, which, thankfully nobody was hurt - but frankly I was more worried for the woman I hit on accident than I was of myself. I hit her in her driver's door. The front of my car was completely totaled - the bumper and lights were completely smashed. I'm just glad my mechanic I went to was able to fix it. Then came my insurance. I had to deal with that as well. Along with the fact I didn't have a license - I had a learner's permit. During mid-October, I had to get my license, and I had some trouble trying to get that. Next, I
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